"Your Thoughts O God Haven't Always been My Thoughts"

   “Your Thoughts O God Haven’t Always been My Thoughts”

Jeremiah 29:11 says that God knows the thoughts he thinks toward us, and I am included, that they are thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give me and you an expected end.

There are times I just cannot wrap my mind around how, or even why he continues to care for me, or any of us. I will speak on my behalf, inasmuch that I know I am deserving of an existence of eternal damnation, and not be so graciously afforded his mercy, his undying unfailing love, and his blessed saving grace.

And let us be frank and completely bluntly honest here alright folks.  Neither do any of us deserve his unconditional love, mercy, or his grace. We deserve the complete opposite, and that is judgment without mercy. And that holds true because we as human beings can be very cruel to each other, very unkind, and uncaring.

And that is partly due because we are looking from the outside in, and not from the inside out. It is so easy for us to be critical, or to judge a situation based upon topical evidence, yet we have not fully been discerning the intricate issues involved on the inner circle of the facts of those to whom we are evasively critical toward. We know not what they are going through. And I speak from personal experiences, for I had this issue years ago, and I used to be the critical judgmental Christian.

I viewed situations topically and would have had still been doing so unless by Gods compassion, and his undeserved mercy upon me he that he does as he has bestowed upon my learning, and as he taught me just how ignorant I was. I as Paul the Apostle confessed aloud that I abhor myself, I am undone. Yet and still today I learn more about God daily every day he wakes me up to another day of chances. Every new day comes complete with its set of chances to be obedient unto him and his commandments, or chances to disobey and stand in dire need of grace.

Let me just be the first to say I am a wretch. I am as Isaiah who saw the Lord high and lifted up seated upon his throne, because I have, and I know him intimately and very personally.

I have much sorrow lodged deeply within the core center of my innermost being. My heart aches and I am still discovering my desperate need of him, to be healed by my Father, and comforted by my Loving God.

I ask him often why do you use me, why do you choose me to speak through, why am I your Prophet, surely there is another more worthy than I? I feel so undone, I am more than to be blamed, I am flawed, and I feel worthless more than any man, I am acquainted with grief, a man of sorrows.

I often say to God, why do you care about me still? You give me chance upon chance, I fail time after time. Yes granted I have victories time after to time, but the victories seem momentary. I knock the devils out with one blow, then they come back and knock my block squarely clean off and down I go. O God it just seems to me that I fail more than I am victorious.

I wish sometimes I would not wake up, that he would just let me pass away in my sleep. So child of God I know how horrible depression is, you are not alone in your experiences.  Please do understand, please believe me on this, that if Satan whispered to you that you’re the only one in this situation now. I want you to just know assuredly that you are not the only one! I need you to hang on, be transparent with God in the midnight hour, let yourself cry, weep those tears no one but you and God see, and let the tears flow because God is holding you as he holds me in those times, and the message to you today is, my child you have never been alone.

I need you to know my dear one that God isn’t looking for golden vessels and neither does he desire silver vessels. God is looking for broken vessels {broken people} so he can pour in his healing anointing oil into our festering wounds. So he can begin to heal us one issue {our wounds} one at a time.

God wants those of us the world terms to be the refuse of the world, the throwaways of society like us, whom the world chewed up, and then spit us out, and threw us away. God seeks to take what this cruel world throws away calling it trash and turns it {us} into his peculiar treasures. When the world see’s what he has done with us, they envy us, they revile us, and they utterly oppose us, and hate us, yeah they do, and they even fight against the move of God in us, flowing through us because they do not believe God wants to do for them as he did for us.

But we must reach out to them, and to say unto them in those hours of their need, that God was there for me so I could be now here for you. Let God love you through my love and care of you. Turn him not away by refusing his love I now show you.

The process of the total sum of experiences you and I go through and must continue to go through is not, and neither shall they be easy, but rather downright difficult, and at times, more than a few will sometimes seemingly appear to be impassible and utterly at times impossible. And while these insurmountable circumstances and experiences may seem so unbelievably, horrendously unable for us in our estimation to endure, let me just assure you my friend that God will strengthen you in those tearful woeful times, when in those moments you feel worthless, so sinful, so unworthy.

And when we reach our own abilities end, it will be at the end of those days when we escape in sleep at night, only to awake the morning to come, only to hear our unfailing and abounding faithful God say to us, do you feel better my son, do you feel better my daughter? We need to tell each other these words, to encourage one another with these sayings for it is in knowing that the Lord our God will never give up on us even when we give up on ourselves. That is why at those times I say that I do not possess the ability to comprehend, and I cannot seem to able fathom just how he can love me still. Isaiah 40:28-31, and Romans 11:26-36.

But it is God who by his Holy Spirit comforts me as he will comfort you also with soothing healing words as he does as he says, “Take courage my child, for my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your human frailty and weakness. Only acknowledge me and I will carry you when you can walk no further. I will always be here for you my child because I know what you do not. I know you fall, and fall hard. I know also that you will get back up that you will not wallow in the mire. Though you fall seven times in a day, I have seen you get back up time after time.

You are mine saith the Lord, and I am not ashamed to call you my own saith God for I am your Father saith Jehovah God and I love you with my eternal everlasting love. Let my love be your only banner over you, I am your cheerleading section saith God, and I believe in you my child because I created you, and I live in you by my Holy Spirit.

Live by me, live by my Spirit in you, that is truth, and that is the truth you know that has set you free through all these truths you have experienced my child. It is not the truth you simply know, but it is the truth you know and have experienced and will experience that will set you free. And whom the Son sets free is free indeed. I am the Lord thy God.”

So my Friend when you feel worthless and unworthy in those times because all you see is your shortcomings through those blinding tears your crying, whether inward tears or flowing from your eyes, just know our Father, and our God in glory is living within you by his Holy Spirit and he feels your sorrows, he is grieved with you and Jesus stands in the Presence of Almighty God his Father and our Father to intercede for all of us especially in our darkest hours of dire need.

He didn’t leave you to suffer alone but he suffered more than anyone. The pain Jesus endured on the Cross only makes sense if you know deep in your heart of hearts that that was God who loved you so much he was willing to die for you upon that old rugged tree made to be his Cross, and it is that God who is our God. And he is redeeming you and me minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, one day at a time. And though we are unable to understand it now, take joy my child, for we shall understand it better by and by.

No one said it would be pretty, and no one said it would be all sunshine with no rain. We must understand to be as a tree we start out as the seed which was sown, then we must daily die to ourselves a thousand times, even if we need do so every single solitary day, and thus continue to happily struggle to push through the stubborn sod, that hardened ground of an unfeeling society to become the sapling as we continue growing from our lives experiences hard as they be, only then we shall begin to flourish near the rivers of refreshing waters as we mature into the trees of his Righteousness, of his planting, the Planting of the Lord. Read Romans 8:4, 1^st Corinthians 1:30, 2^nd Corinthians 5:21, Isaiah 61:1-3.

Then one fine day my Child we shall no more be children, but we will be Sons and Daughters of our Papa God, happily revealed at long last upon the mantle of God shown off to the world as one of his sons and daughters.

 Then God our Father along with our Lord Jesus from Nazareth our holy Sovereign and our holy King whom we shall at long last hear him proclaim to the whole world, “Behold what you threw away as garbage, and See what I have done” as he points to each and every last one of us his holy sons and daughters and smiles from ear to ear with utmost pride in his heart at the Job well done."

 

So hold on and hang in there child of God, he is on your side and he is on mine too. Romans 8:28, Romans 16:20, Genesis 3:15, John 3:16, Galatians 3:16, Revelation 11:15, and Revelation 12:11.

And in the end my Bible says in Revelation chapter 22:1-10 that we win the war. In the end we’ll all be together, and we’ll all be going home.

This visible world is not our home, for we look for a city whose maker and builder is our Papa, Almighty God.

And God shall gently wipe away every tear from off every face. And then he shall say unto all of us his Children, well done thou good and faithful servant, come and enter thou into the joys of thy Lord.

Foundational Scriptures Found in: Isaiah 25:8, Revelation 21:1-7, Matthew 25:21, Hebrews 11:10, Luke 19:17, and John 15:10-14.

Love Always, Gods humble Servant,

Joshua Carl S. Vitale~                                                                                                 

I lovingly dedicate this blog to My Lord, and My God, Jesus from Nazareth.

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